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by Mahja

A hot mess, fresh off a heartbreak, no helmet on, I just spiralled right into my mid-20s with my rebellious spirit when a sudden wave hit me. I sat there, meditating, staring at myself in the mirror with foils in my hair at the salon thinking how much quieter it’s gotten.

Crossing the bridge of 20s I was right in the centre with the sun shining down on my head, it was bright and warm and I felt stable. Earlier, it felt like I was thrown into a pit of snakes and I wasn’t sure how I ended up there. Slowly, I was able to pull apart each snake and set them off their way.

My mid 20s was filled with beautiful memories of brunches, travel, and new experiences with a behind the scenes of having a quarter life crisis.

Quarter life crisis checklist

1. Moved out

2. Dyed hair ridiculous colour (I loved it tho)

3. Rebounded

4. Dropped out of school

5. Became a barista

6. Moved back home

7. Re-enrolled in school for something completely different

8. Picked up smoking

9. Got a pet

Being in the consequences of your own choices still felt better than the snake pit. Instead of letting things happen to me I took on the reins. Now, I’m quite weak so I also went with the wind but you can’t help that because life is a mighty force and you have to work with it. I feel content many a times which I didn’t dream of feeling ever. I could die right now but in a completely different way from before. With 30 looming, I’m not as worried about where I should’ve been but rather accepting where I am. It’s my place here wherever I am and the best is to let it be decorated with my everything.

I don’t have much for advice but you should gather being yourself, living life to the fullest and to always keep growing as a person as the aphorisms of this story.

I want to thank my husband for holding my hand through the roller coaster of my mid-20s. My friends for all their company. My family for loving me. The early-20s me for persevering and saving up despite not knowing what for.